2 Months Later

Sooo.. It's been two months. A lot has happened in two months. We had Christmas and Alex's family came to visit. The ONEThing conference was good. Jess, Tim and little baby Fiery came for that and we got to hang out. It was all fun and games and for me some work.

The biggest change was that we moved back to Kansas City, Missouri. We packed everything a week after everyone went home and moved. We painted the whole house and cleaned up all the dirt. We had to do all this before Alex started school or our house would be a mess until spring break. I can finally say that this is my home and we're settled in (we only have to receive our new couch, then we'd be truly settled in). I love it here.

Because Alex has school, I get a lot of time to myself. What do I do with all this time? Well, I clean, play the Wii (probably two much), take care of our dog Reilly and think. And lately I've been thinking about what my life is going to come to and how I'm going to live the rest of it. Yes, I want to be a mom and a wife but I know there is more to the story then that. I can't truly say I can put a finger on it but I believe it involves being full-time in the prayer room that involves music. It's kinda hard to think about it though. Last time I tried to do the prayer room thing it all failed. Sooo.. I'm scared to go back there.

I need to become more confident. So what I decided to do was to just become confident in God and know that he knows how to run my life. He knows more about me then I do. I started writing down Scripture that would make me more confident in him. Scriptures about His strength, His promise and His possible ways. I learned the hard way that I can't do things on my own and this time around I'm not going to.

Please pray with me to help figure this out. I know God has a plan for me I just got to search it out (Jeremiah 29:11-14).

** Mike Bickle had a really good sermon today. I would recommend that you all listen to it or at least get the notes. **