Family...

I got up today at 5am and started driving to Springfield, MO at 5:30am to go to my uncle's funeral. The ride was two and a half hours long. Alex wasn't able to make due to not finding replacements for sound. I drove alone. I didn't think that I could do it alone but I made it. I was pretty proud of myself. Driving in the dark stinks... Especially if you have no idea how the road twist and turns but I still made it without any problems.

The funeral was a simple reminder for me... That life is unexpected and I might not be here within the seconds to come but I can be reassured that I will meet my Savior and best Friend in the Life to come. Grant it.. I'm sometimes afraid of death. I wish I wasn't so afraid though. I know that I'm going to heaven when I die but I have the mindset of, "well, I'm so young and God can't take me now!" The reality.. He can take me whenever He wants. Soo.. an eternal mindset is what I need to strive for now.

Paul said in Philippians 1:23, "I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ..." Paul had an eternal mindset. It is obviously better to be with Christ. So... I need to stop thinking materialistically and more eternally.

All this thought made me think about my family. I love all of them so much; on both my mom and my dad's side. They all have a special place in my heart. Some are crazier than others (and I might be one of the crazies) but it makes everything more interesting and causes me to love everyone more. I want to try, this year, to spend more time with my family. It's gonna be difficult with the PA folk because I live so far away but when I go home I'll try. I look forward to spend more time with my Missouri family since I missed so much because I lived in PA.

To my family.. I love you and miss you all. You will always have a HUGE place in my heart and the memories with never be forgotten. To my immediate family.. I love you more than words can say. You have helped to form me into the person I am today and I am eternally grateful! Hopefully you'll move closer to me but I think that is in my dreams ;-)!