Soo.. Hi all. I'm sitting here by myself in my home. Alex is in California and I'm starting to get lonely. I keep saying to myself to watch tv or something but I don't want to. My cousin, Julia, came up to visit me. She's awesome. I loved hanging out with her. I miss Alex a lot. You never know how much you miss someone until they are gone. Maybe this will help me to learn to appreciate Alex more while he's around.
Anyways... I've been struggling lately with where God wants me to be right now. I mean, I know He eventually wants me to be more involved with IHOP but recently I've been dissatisfied with the word, "EVENTUALLY." I would complain to God about my current situation and tell Him, "You have me hear but I want to be over there. Don't you see that God?" I have been struggling and still am.
A couple of weeks ago I opened my Bible to Matthew 5. I thought to myself, "Maybe God has a word for me in here." So I start reading. I pretty much read the Sermon on the Mount. About halfway through reading, I thought to myself, "This is not what I'm supposed to do. Maybe I should shut my Bible and open it up to a random page and point my finger, without seeing, somewhere on that page and that will be my message and answer for me." Somewhere deep down I knew that wasn't the answer and that something told me to keep reading. I kept reading. I read through chapter 5 and 6 and began reading chapter 7. I've gotten a lot of things from the Sermon but something was coming up that struck me intensely.
I read chapter 7 and came across verse 7. It read, "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you (matt. 7:7)." I stopped dead in my tracks. I just began to realize what I was doing. I wasn't seeking or knocking and I certainly wasn't asking. All I was doing in my situation was complaining to God about how bad it was and how I wanted to be in IHOP. I need to ask Him. I need to seek Him. I need to knock at His door. God will give me good gifts it says in the verses after verse 7. I began to ask. I need to be doing it more though.
I would recommend to everyone to read Matthew 5-7. It's all of it or none of it. Alex and I want to start to build our foundation on it instead of on the shifting sands of the world. Seek Him first!
3 comments:
I just had this hit me this week too!!! How cool!!!
i love you! your posts always make me smile and challenge me. :)
On another cool note... a couple of nights ago I dreamed Matthew 7 (about the log being in your eye). Hee hee. Tell me what God talks to you about next and maybe it'll be the same for me again :-D
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