Confidence...

Hello again! I haven't blogged in a while because of two things: 1) Nothing has really hit me to blog about 2)I've been really lazy. I'm up and at it again so I hope this goes well.

Confidence. It's one of the things that I lack. Actually I believe I lack it the most in my life besides energy at the end of the day. I don't know why I have this lack of confidence. All I know is that I want it bad.

I pretty much am not confident with anything. I'm not confident that I will pass the audition for school. I'm not confident in making friends. I'm not confident that my life will ever get to the point of trusting in God completely. I'm not confident in Jesus. That's the worst of it all. I know in my head that he came and died for me but it hasn't moved to my heart.

I need to trust in God and be more confident in Him. I don't even know where to begin. I think that I might try to look up 'confident' verses in the Bible and read them to start to believe in it. I'm guessing that to be confident in all the other little things of life, I have to learn and love to be confident in Jesus.

This is going to be so very hard and I know that I'm going to need encouragement and prayer and advice and support. I know this is one of Satan's ways of putting me down and he has a very strong hold over my confidence. Please pray with me to get through this. It will be a rough and hard and turbulent road. I know I will make it through.

Help me Jesus.