Friday, August 21, 2009

Tired..

Hi everyone,

It's been awhile. Just a quick update. Alex and I are in school. I'm taking three classes and it's wonderful. It's been a long time since I was in school but it hasn't been too bad. I think that once you've been away from it for awhile you enjoy it more later on.

I'm tired. I'm tired of putting myself before God. I'm tired of my bad attitude. I'm tired of rejecting God's love for me. I'm tired of focusing on the sin and not the sin forgiver. I'm just tired. When am I gonna wake up out of this luke-warmness and realize where I am in God?? In notes from Mike's sermon he writes, "Are you sinner who struggles to be a lover of God or are you a lover of God who struggles with sin?" I'm not the latter part. Unfortunately. I just want genuine love. Genuine relationship. Genuine passion. Genuine sincerity. I want to encounter God's love where it changes me.

Jesus, I want to trust you! "Trust" Kristene Mueller

It's the sweetest thing
to trust you
just to know
You got everything under control

it's the sweetest thing
to trust you
just to know
You got everything

and You are making me a mountain
making me a mountain
that cannot be shaken

well You are making me a mountain
making me a mountain
that cannot be moved

high up on a rock
looking out at the horizon
watching as the storm rolls in
wondering if my heart will survive it

as the waves crash all around me
and can't remember what it feels like to be free

i know You're making me a mountain
making me a mountain
that cannot be shaken

oh You are making me a mountain
making me a mountain
that cannot be moved

You say, I've got you my baby
I've got you
it's quite the mess you're in
but it's nothing Love can't fix

so sit here upon my shoulders
and watch as it all unwinds

You are making me a mountain
making me a mountain
that cannot be shaken

i know You're making me a mountain
making me a mountain
that cannot be moved